A Tough Decision I’ve Had To Make In A Relationship

I enjoyed spending time with one particular guy awhile back five years ago. We went shopping. We ate out at different restaurants. We did impromptu photo shoots. We went to different concerts and shows.

I wanted to keep doing more and more exciting things. I loved the feeling of excitement. When that feeling of excitement dissipated, I felt bored, alone and stuck. I was addicted to the feeling of opportunity and new things happening each time I met up with the guy that I was seeing at the time.

The guy had broken up with me around the 4th of July. I was no longer able to get that feeling of excitement anymore.

I realized that I was able to fully be present in the moments that we shared when they happened. Even though the moments that I was so accustomed to did not continue, I came away from this partnership with an understanding that I wanted to recreate this in my own life.

I looked to creating excitement in my own single daily life. This was a foundation for me to continue moving forward in love. I found excitement in my yoga journey when I gained more flexibility. I found excitement in traveling to new places to quench my thirst for adventure. I found excitement in my meditation journey when I realized new things about myself.

I wanted to try to connect with the guy that left me. I did. We hung out. It wasn’t the same. I was distraught. I knew that he would never be interested in me the same way again.

I left him in the past and moved on. I found guys that I felt happy and excited to be with. I finally found someone that loved me for who I was and that I loved in return.

Even though the partnership ended from five years ago, I learned the kind of excitement that I wanted in my own life. I recreated that on a personal level and then recreated that with my fiancé.