“I am patient, tolerant and diplomatic.”

Yesterday, I wrote a blog post called “Affirmations: My Secret Weapon To Inspire Love.” I talked about how I was able to transform areas of my life including love through affirmations. Yesterday morning from my daily affirmations calendar, I saw an affirmation that really embodied who I felt that I was about three years ago.

Three years ago, I felt that I mastered myself and I really felt that I was in the energy of patience, tolerance and diplomacy. I felt super good about what I was doing in my work. I was extremely tolerant of other people’s ideas. I was able to tactfully and professionally handle situations. I felt in control of my life, but I still had anxiety of being able to master more in my life. I had no concrete answers. It all hinged on me and my abilities.

There were many misunderstandings and miscommunications that had happened about a year or two ago in my relationships. I felt that I was more frustrated and agitated about my life. This delayed personal success because I was unable to be open with myself and others. I constantly reflected on past traumas and failures in my life. I felt that I could never overcome the new obstacles that had come my way.

I felt that I needed to learn to relax again. I felt that I needed to learn to be in the flow of the Universe again.

I tried working out more. I was working full time as a store manager. I would work and then go work out. I was overworking myself. I was looking after my health and adjusting things as I saw fit. I counted calories, drank more water, went on meal plans, created my own meal plans, and joined Facebook groups for weight loss.

I really needed more sleep and more time, but I couldn’t get it. I had just moved into a new home in November 2018. I had all of my stuff everywhere. My fiancé and I had moved our stuff with some help from a friend, but it was mainly us getting everything out of the home that we rented into the home that we would now own. It was on Thanksgiving Day in 2018 that we moved. I was also working non-stop as a store manager. I spent hours at work. I was not enjoying myself and it seemed like everyone coming at me had complaints that I couldn’t fix.

I came back to things that helped me, but the environment really affected my health even when I tried my best. There was a dead end. I ended up finding a new beginning eventually. I regained my stability. I found a new purpose. I transformed my life.

Love is a microcosm in life. Our emotions can change in different periods of our life. When I was heavily stressed, it affected my partner negatively. When I believed in myself, it affected my partner positively. We can help or hurt our partner depending on what we are going through. Coming back to a place of stability is now what I strive for in my life and in love.